it feels like home

eyes closed

our breathing

finding the comfort of sleep

your hand reaches

over to find mine

pulling me closer

kissing the inside

moving your body

Inches from mine

we don’t make attempts

but it’s the most intimate

forms of feeling wanted

that i have ever felt

say my name

it rolled off the tongue

without hesitation

a sea of apologies

following

sheepish and smug

was it so easy to confuse

me and say her name

while pulling me closer

could i have been

more naive to believe

anything less

you really hurt me this time baby

I whispered as I laid my head

between your chest

dying inside

tight chest

unable to breathe in new air

limp and scared

of what comes next

light turning to darkness

wind blowing

dirt throwing

buried in the ground

hands cold

eyes closed

this is what death looks like

it might be over soon

water seeping

through pinholes

to the sound of

your breaking heart

against the window

sunlight rising

between cracks

birds singing

“it’s a trap”

can you hear them singing?

you love her

mind flowing

with toxins

hazed and confused

wandering

lost

wondering

did she feel the same

against you?

did your skin crawl

with every stroke

from the tips of

her fingers

did you hear

her heart race

to the sound

of your bodies

do you love her

like the ocean

sea salty air

like you used to

love me

Or is it better

never mind

don’t answer that

thunder

be the storm
that drags me through winds
that gets me so lost
that ill forget how it even started

Lost

it starts with
you

in tides
that bind us

we roll
in waves

fish me out
from never ending
oceans

hold me close
against the sound

whip me around
until i drown

Fire

The electric touch
That would roll
Through my spine
At the tips of your fingers

I never had a chance under you

With fire burning eyes
Staring long enough to
See right through me

Lips with an agenda
Fast and urgent
No time to learn their shape
Against my own

I miss the fire you started
Now i’m left burning alone

the art of nightmares

who knew that you could
fill the space that was missing

so often i find myself
reaching for emotions
that i cant seem to hold

then you came along
and showed me affection

now i spend every day
craving your intentions

don’t string me
along the outlines
so you can push me out
and let me into the voided spaces

you scare me more than any
monster that lives in
my nightmares
with a full moon out
ill be waiting for you

did you ever dream about
the possibilities
or how we were
doomed from the start

because not all monsters
live to tell the tale in the dark